FLINT AND STEEL FREEWRITING PROMPT

My Focus During the Month of May

Is bringing myself back to the present moment.

Sorina Raluca Băbău
Flint and Steel
Published in
3 min readMay 6, 2022

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“I knew the power of a single wish, after all. Invisible and inevitable, like a butterfly that beats its wings in one corner of the globe and with that single action changes the weather halfway across the world.”
― Alice Hoffman

Last month, I would often catch myself reminiscing about the past.

I had a few significant butterfly effect flashbacks from my twenties- moments when I had to choose one path or another. 🦋

I thought of the decisions I’ve made so far that have shaped me into the person I am today. And how they brought me together with certain people and opportunities at certain times in my life. How it’s all interconnected.

And I kept asking myself, how aware was I of the decisions I made back then? And how many of them have been made out of ego, or the desire to prove something to someone, or because deep down I thought I wasn’t good enough for a certain path?

Looking back at all the times I’ve been at crossroads, I can’t say for sure I would have taken the other way.

I also can’t say I regret my decisions, I just had a few moments in April when I couldn’t help myself but wonder…what if...

What would my life have looked like now, in my thirties had I made the other choices the Universe presented to me at that time?

I guess I’ll never know and there’s also no point in asking myself these questions.

So, in May, I want to bring the focus back to the present moment.

I also want to make sure that most of my decisions are made consciously and that they are aligned with my values.

I want to prioritize my well-being and mental and physical health. I want to be in nature more, write more, and work on the harmony of my relationships.

I also want to give back more to the community and people around me. To do that, I also have to let go of the armor I used to wear for many years; this armor has been doing a good job protecting me from disappointment, but at the same time has shielded me from potential love and joy.

I want to embrace my vulnerable side and although it’s one of my biggest challenges at the moment, I know it has to be done to allow love to come into my life. And to be able to reciprocate it.

“When we were children, we used to think that when we were grown-up we would no longer be vulnerable. But to grow up is to accept vulnerability… To be alive is to be vulnerable.”

― Madeleine L’Engle

That’s my focus in the month of May.

I would love to know: what is your focus during the month of May? 🌻

Thank you for reading, I appreciate you!

I would love to say thanks to the wonderful writer and editor at the Flint & Steel publication here on Medium, Ellie Jacobson, for this amazing prompt What Is Your Focus During the Month of May?

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Sorina Raluca Băbău
Flint and Steel

Clinical Psychologist. Integrative Psychotherapist. Writer. Dreamer. Traveler. Pet lover. Avid reader. Chocolate's biggest fan. Yoga practitioner.